God, are You there?
Has anyone else fallen into the trap of wanting to hear from God more?
“Where is He leading me?”
“What does He want for my life?”
“Am I doing God’s will?”
“Why can’t I hear Him like other people do?”
For years, I compared my relationship with God to everyone else’s. I’d think, “They hear from God all the time—why don’t I?” It honestly felt like the bully talked to me more than God did. I could see God, but it was like there was a thick piece of plexiglass between us. I could see Him working in other people’s lives, but I couldn’t hear Him in mine.
That silence sent me spiraling. I convinced myself God didn’t want to talk to me because of my sin. I even tried to defend Him for it—“I’m such a mess, I wouldn’t want to talk to me either.”
Looking back, I think part of the problem was that I had gotten used to one-sided relationships. You know the kind—where you’re the one doing all the talking, or all the giving, or all the fixing. So when it came to God, I just assumed it would be the same way. I thought I had to work to get His attention instead of resting in the truth that I already had it.
Then one day, when I was at the end of my rope—convinced God despised me—I heard a simple question in my spirit:
“Noah, do you have to hear from Me to follow Me?”
It wasn’t loud. The heavens didn’t open, and the ground didn’t shake. But that quiet question stopped me in my tracks.
Was His grace truly enough for me?
Because if it was, then hearing or not hearing didn’t change who He is—or where He is.
Through tears I said, “Yes, what you did for me, is enough!”
And something shifted. My focus changed. I stopped wearing my “What’s wrong?” glasses and put on my “God is the center” glasses.
Now, I see this walk with Him differently. It’s not a straight, smooth road. It’s a journey—sometimes full of tripping hazards, sometimes boulders that block our view. But He’s right there in the center of it all. Every twist, every bump, every obstacle becomes a place where He teaches us to turn to Him.
And the more I focus on that—on Him being in the journey instead of trying to shout from the sidelines—the more peace I find.
His grace is enough.
His presence is constant.
We don’t have to worry if He’s with us—
He’s already in us.
-Noah