I was visiting an old saint when he was asked a question by a visitor, “What are your financial needs?” The old man paused, stared, and responded, “Why? Did God tell you to give me something? If God told you to give me something, and I were a millionaire, you should give it. If God didn’t tell you to give me something, and I am naked and starving, you shouldn’t give me anything. The most important thing is that you listen to God and do what He tells you.” I learned a lot from that man that day, and that is the policy we follow at Abiding Life Ministries International. It’s been our conviction over the years that God gives us supporters as opposed to our recruiting them, and He gives us, in turn, to the supporters. It has been a miracle how He has multiplied the ministry over the years through those on our support team’s hearing Him and giving a gift at the perfect time. I also follow John Wesley’s advice that the people deserve to know what the need is and at the same time be left alone to hear God. To that end, once each year we send out a short letter that tells of the needs of the coming year with a trip report detailing the activities in another country. This is the only reference to funds that is made in the course of a year. If you would like to receive that package, please e-mail your name and physical address.

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Hebrews 11:8, “By faith, Abraham, when he was called, obeyed by going out to a place which he was to receive for an inheritance; and he went out, not knowing where he was going.”

What are we to expect when we make a career change or when we move from one place to another? What is the way of things when we accept a different call? There are things that we must know. First, before we can determine to leave a place, we must understand that most of us will slowly become unsettled with the place in which we presently work or reside. God often makes us dissatisfied with a place before He shows us the way, for if He showed the way before we were dissatisfied, why would we not hesitate to take it? Dissatisfaction with surroundings will make the move of faith much easier. Second, like homing pigeons released, we must circle, feeling lost, until something clicks in our innermost being and we know the direction in which we are to go. Third, we are being grafted into a new place on the vine, and the dung must be packed around the insertion to keep us in place and free from disease and bugs. Fourth, there must be reversals before a fulfillment of that to which we believe we have been called. Fifth, we are like the caterpillar in that by our own choosing we have built ourselves a tomb wherein we cannot move and are in the dark. Yet, in this dark place faith is being wrought, and we will emerge from the cocoon looking much different than when we entered into it. In all of this, we must see that the goal of shifting locations had faith as its goal. Faith is the assurance of things hoped for and the conviction of things not yet seen (Heb. 12:1). Just as ships leaving the harbor must keep fixed on two points ahead to exit into the open sea, so we must stay fixed on this goal of faith in Jesus. When we have little needs, we will have the perception of a little God; big needs develop a little better sense of how big a God we serve. Shifting location will force us to recognize a big God. Beautiful.

We have a history with God that proves to us that His is a better way.

I Cor. 2:12, Now we have received, not the spirit of the world, but the Spirit who is from God, so that we may know the things freely given to us by God.
I was talking to a group of the brothers and asked them to do a simple exercise. Take a sheet of paper and draw a line down the middle. On the left-hand side write down all that you thought you would receive in life, and on the right-hand side list what you have actually received. In the end, everyone agreed that the list on the right was much bigger; all had received more than they had ever imagined. That being the case, I asked if their objectives in life were as good as the Lord’s plan. We have ideas of what we want that are often based outside of the love of God. That is, we don’t fully trust that what He gives will be better than what we can obtain in the power of the flesh. I remember a friend, years ago, saying to me with conviction, “I don’t want my own will! I have had it, and it isn’t as good as God’s.” Well, amen. We have a history with God that proves to us that His is a better way. I am getting through with plans and simply saying each and every day, “Thy will, not mine.” Why not relax? He has done a great job up to this point. “Do not worry then, saying, ‘What will we eat?’ or ‘What will we drink?’ or ‘What will we wear for clothing?’ For the Gentiles eagerly seek all these things; for your heavenly Father knows that you need all these things. But seek first His kingdom and His righteousness, and all these things will be added to you. So do not worry about tomorrow; for tomorrow will care for itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.”

Over the course of the years I have attended, witnessed, and been told of a variety of meetings and experiences that simply cannot be witnessed to from the Scriptures. Attempts to verify and legitimize them through the Scriptures are made; however, most often this ends in a distortion of the Bible. So what about such meetings and experiences? Those that have such experiences will vehemently fight for them as valid experiences of the Spirit. Though the expressions are not consistent around the world, “other” type experiences are. Some witness to having teeth turn gold, others to a cross turning to gold, uncontrolled laughter, pictures of saints that exude a fragrant aroma that heals, falling down and passing out, prophecies, people turning to pigs through prayer, and much, much more. I have heard many accounts, all told with sincerity and conviction. Again, what about such meetings and experiences? First, I must keep it all in perspective. In short, I really don’t care. Why? Not because I don’t care for the people, but because even if the experience and meeting were legitimate, it wasn’t my meeting or my experience, so why would I argue a position? It is too easy for all of us to move into pride. While Jesus was with the disciples, they were one. Take Jesus out of the center of any conversation and there will be division. I wouldn’t sacrifice my relationship with Christians over an experience that someone else had. Therefore, we approach such experiences without an agenda. I am not trying to prove or disprove. In comparison with my fellowship with a believer, I don’t care. Therefore, I will often go quiet if I see that my observations would cause a division. This approach won’t satisfy those that want to fight for the truth. However, the truth is not any experience, but Jesus. This brings me to the second point: a meeting or an experience does not create a heart for Jesus, but it does reveal one. Camping on this point has helped me, for I see both types of people attending such meetings. One person goes for the spectacular, for the seeking of the experience, all in the hope of creating a heart for God or obtaining a shred of proof that he is acceptable to God. This person is most open to deception. Some with this attitude are even leading the meetings. Perhaps we could liken it to “Christian pornography.” The purpose of pornography is to stimulate the fleshly body, albeit unnaturally. The body is to be stimulated by one’s mate, not another in the form of a picture. In the same way, the mind, will, and emotions belong to God and are to be stimulated by His Spirit. However, Christian pornography would be allowing something other than God to stimulate the soul. Many in seminaries are addicted to “intellectual pornography,” for they are always looking for the thing that will stimulate the mind. Many organizations are driven by men who have their wills stimulated through fantasizing about great works, or “pornography for the will power.” Others are into “emotional pornography” through the stirring of the emotions in a meeting or an experience. It is unnatural to go to a meeting seeking something to stir the soul other than Jesus. When those with such a heart are describing the experience and are questioned, they will immediately shift course and say that it is all about Jesus. However, His name was never mentioned in the course of the description. Instead there was a forceful presentation of the experience and the meeting. This is a revelation of the heart. Remember that Jesus did miracles and generally told the people to be quiet about them. He didn’t want to attract people who were attracted by miracles. Actually, I believe that a false teacher is used of God to reveal false hearts. I don’t mind if people go running to them, for they are seeking something other Jesus. Christian pornography, those things that stir the soul, are like the picture; they are a substitute for the real Person. In talking to a Pentecostal Pastor and a Baptist Pastor, I asked the same question. “Go back 20 years and think of the people in your church. Where are they today? How many are still moving forward?” Both pastors gave the same percentage; both have the same “results.” One can only conclude that it is not doctrine that allows for forward movement, but the grace of God and the choice of man. Therefore, the doctrine of a meeting can be completely wrong, but we must not neglect those that attend such meetings, for the revelation of the motives of their hearts. Faith is an amazing thing. If you believe that God will meet you at the Baptist church, will He? If you believe that God will meet you at the Pentecostal church, will He? If you believe that you will meet Him in the mountains, will you? He is everywhere. He can be found in any place at any time. Therefore, good-hearted people go to strange meetings and meet Jesus. Their hearts are revealed. The proof is in their lives. I have known those that have had very abnormal experiences, and yet it is obvious they are moving up in Jesus, talking more about Jesus, promoting Jesus, and not pushing the experience. What do we say to such things? Well, amen! I don’t have to understand it to witness to it. I know people personally that were, outwardly, going nowhere until the experience came and something changed. They became Christ-centered. In conclusion, meetings do not create hearts, they reveal them. Go to any meeting with the right heart, and your heart will be revealed. Go to the weird meeting wanting to create some kind of heart, and any manner of thing can happen. That is why people with a right heart come away from really strange things blessed, and those with a wrong heart are led further astray.

Over the course of the years I have attended, witnessed, and been told of a variety of meetings and experiences that simply cannot be witnessed to from the Scriptures. Attempts to verify and legitimize them through the Scriptures are made; however, most often this ends in a distortion of the Bible. So what about such meetings and experiences? Those that have such experiences will vehemently fight for them as valid experiences of the Spirit. Though the expressions are not consistent around the world, “other” type experiences are. Some witness to having teeth turn gold, others to a cross turning to gold, uncontrolled laughter, pictures of saints that exude a fragrant aroma that heals, falling down and passing out, prophecies, people turning to pigs through prayer, and much, much more. I have heard many accounts, all told with sincerity and conviction. Again, what about such meetings and experiences? First, I must keep it all in perspective. In short, I really don’t care. Why? Not because I don’t care for the people, but because even if the experience and meeting were legitimate, it wasn’t my meeting or my experience, so why would I argue a position? It is too easy for all of us to move into pride. While Jesus was with the disciples, they were one. Take Jesus out of the center of any conversation and there will be division. I wouldn’t sacrifice my relationship with Christians over an experience that someone else had. Therefore, we approach such experiences without an agenda. I am not trying to prove or disprove. In comparison with my fellowship with a believer, I don’t care. Therefore, I will often go quiet if I see that my observations would cause a division. This approach won’t satisfy those that want to fight for the truth. However, the truth is not any experience, but Jesus. This brings me to the second point: a meeting or an experience does not create a heart for Jesus, but it does reveal one. Camping on this point has helped me, for I see both types of people attending such meetings. One person goes for the spectacular, for the seeking of the experience, all in the hope of creating a heart for God or obtaining a shred of proof that he is acceptable to God. This person is most open to deception. Some with this attitude are even leading the meetings. Perhaps we could liken it to “Christian pornography.” The purpose of pornography is to stimulate the fleshly body, albeit unnaturally. The body is to be stimulated by one’s mate, not another in the form of a picture. In the same way, the mind, will, and emotions belong to God and are to be stimulated by His Spirit. However, Christian pornography would be allowing something other than God to stimulate the soul. Many in seminaries are addicted to “intellectual pornography,” for they are always looking for the thing that will stimulate the mind. Many organizations are driven by men who have their wills stimulated through fantasizing about great works, or “pornography for the will power.” Others are into “emotional pornography” through the stirring of the emotions in a meeting or an experience. It is unnatural to go to a meeting seeking something to stir the soul other than Jesus. When those with such a heart are describing the experience and are questioned, they will immediately shift course and say that it is all about Jesus. However, His name was never mentioned in the course of the description. Instead there was a forceful presentation of the experience and the meeting. This is a revelation of the heart. Remember that Jesus did miracles and generally told the people to be quiet about them. He didn’t want to attract people who were attracted by miracles. Actually, I believe that a false teacher is used of God to reveal false hearts. I don’t mind if people go running to them, for they are seeking something other Jesus. Christian pornography, those things that stir the soul, are like the picture; they are a substitute for the real Person. In talking to a Pentecostal Pastor and a Baptist Pastor, I asked the same question. “Go back 20 years and think of the people in your church. Where are they today? How many are still moving forward?” Both pastors gave the same percentage; both have the same “results.” One can only conclude that it is not doctrine that allows for forward movement, but the grace of God and the choice of man. Therefore, the doctrine of a meeting can be completely wrong, but we must not neglect those that attend such meetings, for the revelation of the motives of their hearts. Faith is an amazing thing. If you believe that God will meet you at the Baptist church, will He? If you believe that God will meet you at the Pentecostal church, will He? If you believe that you will meet Him in the mountains, will you? He is everywhere. He can be found in any place at any time. Therefore, good-hearted people go to strange meetings and meet Jesus. Their hearts are revealed. The proof is in their lives. I have known those that have had very abnormal experiences, and yet it is obvious they are moving up in Jesus, talking more about Jesus, promoting Jesus, and not pushing the experience. What do we say to such things? Well, amen! I don’t have to understand it to witness to it. I know people personally that were, outwardly, going nowhere until the experience came and something changed. They became Christ-centered. In conclusion, meetings do not create hearts, they reveal them. Go to any meeting with the right heart, and your heart will be revealed. Go to the weird meeting wanting to create some kind of heart, and any manner of thing can happen. That is why people with a right heart come away from really strange things blessed, and those with a wrong heart are led further astray.

“I am the true bread that came down out of heaven.”

John 6:12, “When they were filled, He said* to His disciples, ‘Gather up the leftover fragments so that nothing will be lost.’ 13So they gathered them up, and filled twelve baskets with fragments from the five barley loaves which were left over by those who had eaten.”

It is an astounding story. Jesus had fed 5,000 people, and what was left over, He wanted. But for what? What are twelve men and a teacher on the move going to do with twelve baskets of barley bread? I imagine that they found a few hungry people along the way. There was exactly enough food for all the people, so I wonder if some, like the boy that offered the five loaves and two fish, had food with them. When the bread that Jesus gave came, they simply ate their own food. They didn’t feel the need for His bread. Therefore, He took it back. Matthew 7:6, “Do not give what is holy to dogs, and do not throw your pearls before swine, or they will trample them under their feet, and turn and tear you to pieces.” Jesus then continues with the theme that He is the bread of life. In the same way that some would rather have their bread than His, there are those that would rather have what the world offers than what Jesus offers. To such people the bread is withdrawn. Sometimes I am talking to someone and all I am met with is one argument after another. That person simply is not interested in Jesus, so I say, “I take it back, I take back everything!” They may believe that I am retracting my conviction over what I have said about Jesus. Not so, I am retracting Jesus. A word not received is a wasted word, and there must be no waste. I just pick it up and wait to give it to others who hunger for the bread that comes from heaven. As we journey we will always find a few hungry people. “I am the true bread that came down out of heaven.” I remember being in India. As I left the airport, a band of men were attempting to wrestle my bags out of my hands. I made it clear that I would carry them myself. Since I would not relinquish the bags, they all walked with me touching them. When I arrived at the car they all wanted a tip. Reluctantly, I gave them all one rupee each. They began to curse me and demand more. I responded, “So one rupee is not enough?” I then took back from each man his one rupee. They were expecting me give them something bigger. Instead, I simply got in the taxi and rode away with them following me, now wanting the one rupee back. However, I had taken back what they didn’t like and was not giving it again. Jesus offers the bread of life; if you don’t want it, He will take it back and leave you exactly where you were before you heard of Him.

“Blessed are they who did not see, and yet believed” (John 20:29b)

“1Now faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen. 2For by it the men of old gained approval.”
One day in my prayers I made a request, “Jesus, I would like to see You!” His response was, “Would you?” The normal way to enter into Jesus is through the unseen, that is, through faith. If we enter another way, we enter through the abnormal, the seen. Many could complain to God, “If you did for my relative what you did for Paul (strike him blind, speak to him, heal him, and teach him in the wilderness), he would believe, also.” However, is a knockout experience what we really want for our relatives? Is it what we really want for ourselves? Imagine a line that represents faith. One can enter into Jesus above that line that we will call the unseen. Once one has entered in through the seen, he must now go an equal distance below the faith line, into the unseen, just to bring him back to the place of faith. This principle is seen over and over again in saints’ lives that have experienced the spectacular. In the end, do you really want a vision or to be caught up to heaven? Such things bring great suffering only to take you back to the place of faith. Be content to be in a place of faith, in a place of the unseen, and in a place of believing. “Blessed are they who did not see, and yet believed” (John 20:29b).

Some, because of a good family setting, have had character chosen for them. Amen. However, it is such a blessing to see them grown and choosing a good life for themselves. It is more satisfying to have your children not take drugs because they don’t want to, than because you told them not to. Their own conviction will carry them when they are out of your sight, and it comes from the personal work of Christ in them. That is why, for every one time we warn them of drugs, we point them a hundred times to Jesus.

“This is the day which the LORD has made; let us rejoice and be glad in it.” Ps. 118:24

A fellow came to see me who was suicidal. He had fallen back into a homosexual act. He is not a homosexual or there wouldn’t’ be the conviction of God after the act. However, he was ready to “check out”. He definitely wanted the most recent failure to be the last failure. He was less than a conqueror and was done trying.

I looked at him and said, “Today, Brother, is the best day of your life. There is no way that today could be better. If you had perfect victory in the past, today would not be better. In fact everything, and I mean everything, that has happened in the past, is making this the perfect day. For today God is going to deal with your……” I paused. He knew that I was going to say homosexuality. However, homosexuality was merely the cobweb, it was not the spider.

He stopped me, “There is no way that you can say today is a perfect day.” I replied, “You won’t say that in a minute. For today God is going to deal with your unbelief and self-righteousness!” It was perfect; it cut him like a knife. It was God and he knew this was the real problem.

We sat there, talked, ministered, and God dealt with the real problem of unbelief and self-righteousness. In the end, he walked out the door, so happy, with a lift in his spirit. He turned and said, “This is the best day of my life!”

You see, we just think we know the problem. It is always consequence, not the cause.